I'm not sure exactly how much more my heart can take. It's to the point where each new tragedy both shatters and numbs me a little more. The feelings go deeper and I do my best to stifle them so that I can carry on with my day-to-day but they're getting bigger, and the space for them to be contained is small and full and they are not feelings that are willing to play nicely and get along and do as they're told. My apologies to all because I find they're bubbling out at the most inopportune moments and if you can just either pretend it's fine or give me a hug that'll help tremendously.
I found the same thing yesterday the pitch-dark I'm accustomed to when early walking with my beast, had turned a brighter snowy hue